a sad poem

i was browsing the web when i read this poem that well, made me cry..
it knocked the air out of me.
it is like my mom and my lola was trying to tell me something.
that they are in a better palce somehow and that they will be waiting for me..

i would like to share it to all those who have lost a loved one.

A message from Heaven
Perhaps you arentt ready yet
to have to say good-bye..
Perhaps you've thought of things
you wish you've said -- well, so have I.
For one thing, I'd have told you,
not to worry about me..
I'm with the Lord in Heaven now --
you knew that's where I'd be.
I'm so sorry that you're feeling sad,
for I am so happy now.
I've asked the Lord to ease the hurt
and comfort you somehow.
It's hard at the beginning
but i know you will make it through
I hope it helps to know
that I'll be waiting here for you.

2009 forecast for me!

i saw this forecast in yahoo and i want to keep track of it..
if it is really going to happen that is..
reading it lifted mg spirits a lot and well i wish to God it were true..

Year 2009 Overview

In 2009, Pisces will enjoy swimming in new dimensions, as the highly charged Aquarius energy allows you to dream big and manifest your ideas. Your imagination soars, awakening a deep desire to seek spiritual truth and meaning in your life -- and in the world.

Your awareness and new perception helps to serve others. You are able to live freely in the world of transformation, and this encourages others to do the same. They feel supported by your wisdom and understanding. Your inspirational qualities are a large part of your purpose in the world -- your ability to heal and inspire.

At times, it may be difficult for you to live in this world of concrete realities, and conversely, sometimes it's hard for others to understand that all you want to do is live in a world of endless possibilities. As you learn to balance these polarities, harmony prevails.

AND THIS ONE IS REALLY SOMETHING!

Daily Flirt:

You feel totally lost, even if you're dealing with a friend or sweetie you've known for years. Somehow, you feel as if you're trapped in a maze with no answer key -- but random ambling should help a lot.

Daily Couples:

Look for a way to channel your energy into a powerful experience for you and your sweetheart. When you focus all your attention on each other, you can reach new levels of intimacy.

if i were a boy

i heard this song over the radio and just like the song of mariah carey (touch my body) i got hooked.. i suddenly remembered one old fave song of mine - the remix of how could an angel break my heart - and shivered at the similarities of the two songs.. (i just realized the themes of the songs that i like.. hmm.. moving on), funny how different men and women think noh.. one thing is for sure both assume.. am i right? think about it! both assume that the other would know what he/she needs and wants. and here lies the dilema.

the fortunate ones were able to find ways to understand and weave this 'man-woman-intricacies'.. the unfortunate ones keep on trying to look for the ones that can weave theirs..

as for me.. hmm.. i get it sometimes and most of the time i dont! i just live each day at a time and well, make mistakes one after the other! and when i listened to this song.. the lines that most trikes me is the line of Lee "I'd listen to him cause I don't know everything" figure it out! ahahaha!


If I WereA Boy Remix Lyrics

If I were a boy
even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
and throw on what I wanted and go
Drink beer with the guys
and chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
and I'd never get confronted for it
cause they'd stick up for me
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
how it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
If I were a girl
even just for a day
I'd get out of bed in the morning
and take forever to get ready
Complain to my friends
as if they got a man
They talk about you cause they're jealous
and I just stay and listen to it (I should get rid of them)
If I were a girl
I dont think I'd understand
how it feels to love a boy
I swear I'd be a better woman
I'd listen to him
cause I don't know everything
I would always try to tell him that he needs to treat me better
Like I don't gotta change at all
If I were a girl
It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake, think I'd forgive you like that? (I don't)
If you thought I would wait for you,
you thought wrong (I did wrong)
But you're just a boy
and you're just a girl
You don't understand
No you don't understand
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don't listen to her
and you don't listen to him
You don't care how it hurts (you don't care how I feel)
Until you lose the one you wanted
cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy
and you're just a girl

dreams

dreams.. pangarap..
hindi panaginip..
meron nga ba ako nito?..
ano nga ba gusto ko..

sa totoo lang
i lost track of my dreams already..
ni hindi ko nga alam kung nagkaroon ba talaga ako nito
siguro nga meron...
pwede rin wala talaga..
akong ako ito..

gusto ko lang mapaligaya ang mga taong mahal ko..
masaya sila..
masaya na rin ako..
pero parang ang hirap nang mapasaya sila..
ni hindi ko nga alam kung talagang napasaya ko sila..
o ilusyon ko lang ang lahat..

baliw..
tanga..
madalas ko ng tawag ito sa sarili ko ngayon..
baliw kasi kung ano-ano na ang sumasagi sa utak ko..
tanga kasi kung ano-ano na ang pinaggagagawa ko..
wala namang katuturan..
wala namang maiaambag sa pagtupad ng pangarap..
ano na nga ba nangyari sa akin?..

napasimpleng bagay hindi ko makita..
napakasimpleng bagay hindi ko magawa..
napakasimpleng bagay pinahihirapan ko..
baliw..
tanga..

pakiramdam ko tumatanda ako
ng walang kinatatandaan..
madalas naman pakiramdam ko
hindi ako tumatanda..
ano nga yong madalas kong sabihin sa sarili ko..
hmm..
ahhh..
GROW UP..

nakakatawa..
kailangang pagawayan parati para magsink in..
ganon talaga dapat ang approach sa akin..
hindi ko maiintindihan ng isang beses..
kailangan paulit-ulit..
at kahit iyon walang garantiya na maalala ko..
o na gagawin ko..
ganon talaga..

mahirap maging ako..
mahirap ang mahalin ako..
mahirap maging kaibigan ko..
mahirap..
tapos..

kaya pangarap...
ha..
eh yong araw - awar ko ngang gagawin
hindi ko maisip..
mangarap pa kaya..

burn out

it happens to the best of lovers and friends.


O, wag kang tumingin ng ganyan sa akin
'Wag mo akong kulitin, 'wag mo akong tanungin
Dahil katulad mo, ako rin ay nagbago
'Di na tayo tulad ng dati, kay bilis ng sandali
CHORUS
O, kay tagal din kitang minahal


Kung iisipin mo, 'di naman dati ganito
Teka muna lang, kelan tayo nailing?
Kung iisipin mo, 'di naman dati ganito
Kay bilis kasi ng buhay, pati tayo natangay


[Repeat CHORUS]


Tinatawag kita sinusuyo kita
'Di mo man marinig, 'di mo man madama


[Repeat CHORUS]

for inquiries

a lot of people have been asking us when will we tie the knot and well i am sick and tired so i might as well say it here.. when we are good and ready.. seriously. i know 7 years is quite a long time to get to know each other and believe me we are past the stage of getting to know each other already. and there is no doubt in my mind that he is the one. its just that we have certain plans that we would want to push through first. (for those who knows bernard you know what i mean) no we are not immigrating anywhere (yet). we would want to be stable first before we rock the boat! dnt worry when the time comes i will tell you!

for now, we are loving each other more and more...

davao adventure

i went to davao with the girls, my family. there is my lola (and we call her simply tita) my older sister (pia). my youngest sister (lia) and her friends (joan). we wanted to go out of town and since our trip to macau, china and hong kong got cancelled we figured we'd see davao instead. here is the deal, we do not know anybody in davao. that is, we are going there like a tourist in our own country!

booking the flight: my older sister found a package in PAL website. 3 days round trip tickets with hotel accomodations. not bad. and yes, PAL makes packages. when you call them to inquire about it though, you have to insist and quote the website that you saw. i am not sure how their call centers work but it seemed like the operator did not know that they have that package! so insist on it! go online with the agent if you have to!

when booking, you have to ensure the departure time in manila arrival in davao (or any other destination), check in and check out time of the hotel you are staying in and departure time in davao and arrival in manila. JOT IT DOWN so you won't forget! these things are really important for you not to miss your flight (esecially for first timers). make sure you know the check in and check out time of the hotel. sometimes (like in our case) you have to pay extra if you would arrive before the hotels' check in time or if you have to stay beyond their check out time. they will not tell you this! so ask away!

PAL requires you to go to their nearest office to present ids for final booking. make sure you know where to go! never be afraid to ask for directions. that's what they do! and please phrase your questions nicely! you will get more believe me!

ours was the first flight out of manila - 4:40 am! so we got the centennial airpot (NAIA) at about 2:30 am. domestic flights are not that strict in the time. just make sure you have ample time to check in your luggages and you have a leway for the traffic! TIP for domestic flights! please wear slippers! yes, slippers. i don't care what kind they are! you can wear ordinary house slippers for all i care. you will be required to remove your shoes and slippers before entering the airport itself. so imagine if you are wearing shoes or worst sneakers!

in davao: make sure u know where you want to go. how do you go about this? research mate! check out the hot spots and yes tourist attractions. what are the things davao is known for (or your destination), that sort of thing. then select which appeals to you.

i am a nature lover so we went to the cocodile park, we went to see the philippine eagle (hey i still know the scientific name of the monkey eating eagle after all these years!), jack ridge, japanes tunnel, and then we went to the beach! and of course shopping!

ok, here's the thing. it would be cheaper if you rent a car or a van! they go about it by the hour. you can choose trips in 5 hours, 8 hours and 10 hours. you can chose from the ones provided by the hotel or you can look for a rent-a-car company on your own. if you are not sure where to go, the drivers will help you out! (davaoenios are so friendly and helpful!)

i have to tell you this. i got a little disappointed with the sites i have seen. maybe because i have been to other countries and other places in the philppines and have something to compare they have.. and well, it's nothing new. added to that is the fact that none of my adventuremates like to take pictures as much as i do! so that's a bummer! but hey. don't let me deter you from finding our for yourself!

as for "bubong" or pasalubong to the people you left wherever. the best place to find fresh fruits is bangkerohan, their local wet and dry market. you can find fresh flowers here too. however, the prices, it seems, are no different from the prices here in manila! still hey, these are the real deal - straight from the farm. as for the durian candies. hey, better go to sm davao for this. and i am serious! their durian candies are cheaper ang fresher! and you can use your credit card! wuhOO!

happy tripping!!!!