when an old friend dies

just a few minuntes ago i learned that my busmate in GS and HS, emanuel gabatin, died last feb 24 08.. and i am really in shock! he was one of those busmates of mine i considered as a kuya since he was also close to my real ate.. at 27 he's dead! grabe! shocking!

i remember he was really jolly and funny. like he does not have any care at all. i would almost always see him reading or studying even inside the school bus. in school i would see him surrounded by friends - always laughing. his waterloo - JERALDINE! shoot i till remember! he was so in love with this girl.. i wonder what happened to them? moving on..

a few weeks ago, i was thinking i would look him up since we live in the same village.. for old times sake.. i was planning to look up all my previous busmates and see what they were up to.. ahaha.. the ever sentimental freak in me.. and then i got busy with work and i had no time to do what i had planned.. and then this..

i can honestly say that the pain and the feeling of loss will NEVER fade away.. i am not being a bitch about this.. i have gone through this with my mom and that is - what 6 years ago! the pain will always be there.. there are days where the pain is unbearable and you would want to simply break down and cry.. and then there are days where you just know he / she is looking down at you with pride..

i hope i get to do what i planned - bringing together all my busmates... and i hope they still remember me! LOL..

to kuya emmanuel wherever you are.. till we meet again!

mahirap maging babae

most of the time maarte and tawag sa amin.. marami ang naiinis pero it's so true! no doubt about it.. maarte sa hair, sa katawan at sa lahat ng bagay! and i have a theory.. it's the hormones dude! i realized that i want to make paganda whenever i finish my monthly.. research nga ako dito.. LOL!

syempre i want to feel good about myself.. bonus na lang yong my bf can't take his hands off me! pero primarily i am bored with the way i look and all and it so happens that i feel this way right after my period..

last week i had a hair treatment, then i had my eyebrows trimmed. this thursday my friend and i will have a laser treatment sa underarm and a facial and i am planning to have my hair rebonded again on sat or sun.. ahahaha! parang malaki magagawa! ahahaha! as my uncle would say "wala ng magagawa kung pangit!" LOL! kahit pangit atleast you feel good about yourself! AMEN!

for my pets

a few weeks ago, i made write up for my babies - that is our pets and i realized that i wanted to do something special for them. i wanted to feature them to other other people especially in our personal website (http://www.burnswria.com/) and one funny thing i cooked up with is to have a professional picture made with them. that is, i will bring them to a photography studio and ask them to well take our picture. not just any picture, i want us (me and my pets) to wear funking outfits and play and stuff like that. heck if they can do that on tv why can't i do it in real life! ahahaha! seriously!