goodbye

this letter was sent to me via email and i'd like to share it here..
it's really simple and thought provoking..

A genius says goodbye.

FAREWELL LETTER
He says:
If God, for a second, forgot what I have become and granted me a little bit more of life,
I would use it to the best of my ability.

I wouldn't, possibly, say everything that is in my mind,
but I would be more thoughtful of all I say.
I would give merit to things not for what they are worth,
but for what they mean to express.

I would sleep little, I would dream more,
because I know that for every minute that we close our eyes, we waste 60 seconds of light.

I would walk while others stop;
I would awake while others sleep.

If God would give me a little bit more of life,
I would dress in a simple manner,
I would place myself in front of the sun,
leaving not only my body,
but my soul naked at its mercy.

To all men,
I would say how mistaken they are when they think that
they stop falling in love when they grow old,
without knowing that they grow old when they stop falling in love.

I would give wings to children,
but I would leave it to them to learn how to fly by themselves.
To old people I would say that death doesn't arrive when they grow old, but it arrives with forgetfulness.

I have learned so much with you all,
I have learned that everybody wants to live on top of the mountain, without knowing that true happiness is obtained in the journey taken & the form used to reach the top of the hill.

I have learned that when a newborn baby, with its little hand,
holds his father's finger, it has trapped him for the rest of his life.

I have learned that a man has the right and obligation to look down at another man, only when that man needs help to get up from the ground.

Say always what you feel, not what you think.
If I knew that today is the last time that I am going to see you asleep, I would hug you with all my strength and
I would pray to the Lord to let me be the guardian angel of your soul.

If I knew that these are the last moments to see you,
I would say 'I love you.’
There is always tomorrow, and life gives us another opportunity to do things right,
but in case I am wrong, and today is all that is left to me,
I would love to tell you how much I love you & that I will never forget you.

Tomorrow is never guaranteed to anyone, young or old.
Today could be the last time to see your loved ones,
which is why you mustn't wait;

Do it today, in case tomorrow never arrives.
I am sure you will be sorry you wasted the opportunity today
to give a smile, a hug, a kiss, and that you were too busy to grant them their last wish.

Keep your loved ones near you; tell them in their ears and to their faces how much you need them and love them.

Love them and treat them well;
take your time to tell them 'I am sorry';'
forgive me', 'please', 'thank you', and all those loving words you know.

Nobody will know you for your secret thought.
Ask the Lord for wisdom and strength to express them.
Show your friends and loved ones how important they are to you.

Send this letter to those you love.
If you don't do it today...tomorrow will be like yesterday,
and if you never do it, it doesn't matter either, the moment to do it is now.

For you, With much love, Your Friend,
Gabriel Garcia Marquez

He famous writer from Colombia, and Nobel Peace Prize winner for literature, has retired from public life for reasons of health. He has a form of cancer, which is terminal. He has sent a farewell letter to his friends.




My life is God's gift to me, what I make of it, is my gift to God!

senti - sentihan in general

i have come yet again to the time of the year when i feel totally down and sentimental. when my world seems to crumble down and i can not do anything to cope. shitty. crappy.. that's how i feel. and no matter how much pep talk i try to give myself nothing seems to work. nothing seems to bring me out of this feeling of inadequacy at self-pity. yes big words dude.. big words..

i started cleaning the house a few months back and up until now i am far from done. things from our house before still scatter the make shift walk in closet my ate and i made, the bodega and the whole house. i am missing important pieces of my life little by little.. i remember we had the nice rectangular dining table - where is it now? where was the flower bernard gave me on our first date as a couple? where are my mom's stuff? painful. heart breaking. they may be little things to others but let me tell you it's a sleepless and tearful night for me. nothing is little for me. nothing.

i love taking pitures. it's not so much as how we look but the event behind it. i remember in detail the event behind every pic i have. whether i am in that picture or not. it's not vanity. most of the pictures i have and took does not even include me. i want to capture the moment and relive it everytime i see the picture. i want to see details of that thing to store in my ever sentimental heart and memory. some say it's funny and stupid. and sometimes it gets to me. i dont take pictures as often as before.

a lot of people my age are getting merried already. i see their pics and to be honest i am a little jealous. i guess all women feel the same way about weddings. when would it be my turn and stuff like that. but it's not that that pains me. it's the kowledge that my mom would never be there to see it and celebrate with me. she loves weddings and would definitely kill me if mine would not pass her standards. i will try mom. i miss you..

i want to go certain places. do certain things but am hindered with one thing - money. i am really poor when it comes to spending money wisely.. i have to change this i know.. just as soon as..

i have a liscence but no car. i am not even allowed to borrow my uncles' car to practice more. as much as i would like to buy myself a car - as if! in the future. my own car. nobody to tell me when to use it. where to use it. or if i would have money for gas.

i have a sim card but no phone. i don't want hand me downs with strings anymore. i can afford one. as soon as...

stupid pride. stupid honor. i never don't want the utang na loob thing. it's blackmail. i will murder for that.

i don't really believe that people change. they may know more and experience more but they never change. no matter how much they say they did or how much you see their "improvements". they don't. they just wrap themselves in different packages to let you believe. i want to believe i am a good judge of charater. i have yet to fail in my impressions and assumptions of other people. i have seen quite a lot of people to say this. i can see what they can do. best to stir clear.. best to be cautious.. you can't avoid them you see.

i am slow. slow to understand things - as in comprehend. i get it now. i get it.

life and all it's trimmings. how exciting!

i love this song!

a new song from Mariah Carey and i am crazy over it! check out the lyrics!

i have always believed that the songs you sing tell something about the way you think and feel at a perticular time.. AHAHAHA! what does this say about me?!

MC, you're the place to be
Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah
Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah

I know that you've been waiting for it
I'm waiting too
In my imagination I'd be all up on you
I know you got that fever for me
Hundred and two
And boy I know I feel the same
My temperature's through the roof

If there's a camera up in here
Then it's gonna leave with me
When I do (I do)
If there's a camera up in here
Then I'd best not catch this flick
On YouTube (YouTube)
'Cause if you run your mouth and brag
About this secret rendezvous
I will hunt you down
'Cause baby I'm up in my bidness
Like a Wendy interview
But this is private
Between you and I

Touch my body
Put me on the floor
Wrestle me around
Play with me some more
Touch my body
Throw me on the bed
I just wanna make you feel
Like you never did.
Touch my body
Let me wrap my thighs
All around your waist
Just a little taste
Touch my body
Know you love my curves
Come on and give me what I deserve
And touch my body.

Boy you can put me on you
Like a brand new white tee
I'll hug your body tighter
Than my favorite jeans
I want you to caress me
Like a tropical breeze
And float away with you
In the Caribbean Sea

If there's a camera up in here
Then it's gonna leave with me
[ Touch My Body lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]
When I do (I do)
If there's a camera up in here
Then I'd best not catch this flick
On YouTube (YouTube)
'Cause if you run your mouth and brag
About this secret rendezvous
I will hunt you down
'Cause baby I'm up in my bidness
Like a Wendy interview
But this is private
Between you and I

Touch my body
Put me on the floor
Wrestle me around
Play with me some more
Touch my body
Throw me on the bed
I just wanna make you feel
Like you never did.
Touch my body
Let me wrap my thighs
All around your waist
Just a little taste
Touch my body
Know you love my curves
Come on and give me what I deserve
And touch my body.

Imma treat you like a teddy bear
You won't wanna go nowhere
In the lap of luxury
Baby just turn to me
You won't want for nothing boy
I will give you plenty
Touch my body

Touch my body
Put me on the floor
Wrestle me around
Play with me some more
Touch my body
Throw me on the bed
I just wanna make you feel
Like you never did.
Touch my body
Let me wrap my thighs
All around your waist
Just a little taste
Touch my body
Know you love my curves
Come on and give me what I deserve
And touch my body.

Oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah
Oh yeah oh yeah
Oh oh oh oh yeah
Touch my body...