reyna ng sablay

why not. kung may hari ng sablay may reyna and that is me..
i am not saying that bernard is the hari..
pwede namang may reyna na walang hari diba?
moving on.. reyna talaga ako ng sablay.
lately, sablay ako sa
work
family
relationships

wala na talaga akong nagawang tama.
meron naman pero it's overshadowed by the many
and i mean many sablay's that i have

i am a big disappointment
to my family
to my friends
to bernard
to st scho

kahit hindi nila sabihin i know
i can feel it.

pero this does not and will not
stop me from living
i make mistakes
and will make make mistakes - yes
but i will still go on..
i have to..

sorry na lang ng sorry forever.
trial and error..
i hope makita din nila
the things that i did right
the things i am doing right

sabog lang talaga ako ngayon
too many things to think about.
so many things to do
and so little time.

bernard would not agree to this
ahahaha
sablay ako lagi sa kanya eh
from the start even when we were in college
i can hear him say hindi lang ako sabog ngayon
i am sabog EVER SINCE
really!
may authority sya eh
we have been together for 6 years (and counting)
and we seldom part
as in almost every waking and sleeping moment
andun ata sya
so he knows me inside out.
kaya may authority to say that
pero he lets me be
pinagbibigyan most of the time
kasi i will always insist on it
in the end sablay naman at disappointed naman
and he is thinking to himself
bakit hinayaan pa nya.

eh love nya ako eh
yun yon!

pero i know
there will come a time na
sasabihin ng mga tao sa paligid ko
enough is enough
i don't know if i would be ready
with whatever reactions that they will have.

i will just take it as a lady
and cry!
BWAHAHA
ang then i will pick up
the pieces of myself and
walk on..